Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life…You give them a piece of you. They didn’t ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn’t your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like ‘maybe we should be just friends’ turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It’s a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.
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This blood of mine burns in my veins
The words I yearn to yell stick inside my throat
The hatred that I have spreads like a wildfire
I smile anyway
Pretending to be happy so you don’t feel awful
I wait for you to walk away
Before I pull my hood over my head and start to cry
Waiting to get home so I can hide away from the world
And protect what is left of me
But I maintain myself long enough
To go inside my room and lock the door
With no intentions of ever coming out again.
A Girl I Once Knew
She sits alone in her room,
hiding from the world…
Fearing that it will swallow her,
hoping that she will suffocate in there…
She cries herself to sleep,
and dies in her dreams…
Yet,
She wakes up every-morning
and staples a fake smile upon her face…
She goes through life trying to please everyone,
that thinks they know her,
yet inside she is screaming HELP for no one to hear…
She tries to remember all the good times she had
before she became this way,
But can not think of any….
(to be continued)
Empty Walls
I see solid white walls in my mind…
Sometimes I wonder…
How this happened?
How could I have been so blind?
Why couldn’t I see?
(to be continued)
I Cant hide the memories and i cant hold in the lies…. I believed in every word you told me… I remember all the words that were said…. Now i see you try to play the same game with some other girl.. But i cant let that happen to her… So i shall spill everything about you and i…
We all make mistakes… Mine was falling for you… And yours was hurting me… Why didnt we just quit while we were ahead? Because we Cant admit that we still love eachother. And we are both incompetent fools in love and neither of us are willing to give up to the other… We shall both lose.
thought of the day:
a person who pretends to be happy all the time is bound to fucking explode in your fucking face…when she s loosing it back the fuck up or you will be in a hospital unless you know how to pin her to the ground.
Because your ass is grass if she gets to you…
SO TAKE A FEW DEEP BREATHS AND RUN LIKE HELL BECAUSE THAT GOOD GIRL YOU KNEW WAS ME AND I JUST CROSSED THE LINE…
I AM FEELING MERCIFUL SO I’LL GIVE YOU TEN SECONDS…
10….9….8….7….6….5….4….3….2….1….
Thought of the day: people are strangers to everyone including themselves sometimes we are insane sometimes we need reassurance sometimes we do stupid things to harm ourselves and it will lead to the fall of our race… But there are some of us out there who try to fix everything… I am not either of these I am somewhere in between… I am a Lost dream and a happy nightmare… I visit you in your sleep… And leave behind memories that will torture your mind and inner spirit…
Have a Happy Period. Always.
Have A Happy Period.
Happy Period.
You try being happy when this is happening:
